Saturday, August 27, 2011 } Y
this feeling sux!!! **ii hate EUU!!!**
today actually planning not to go
to the outing.. but.. end up, ii told
myself.. no matter what ii still need
to face the reality.. today ii still can
avoid but can ii avoid forever??
decide-ed not go liang ting house..
told her to meet @ her house de bus
stop instead...
then went vivo by bus 10.. reach-ed
@ 1.10pm.. then went straight to meet
Ying Ying, her bf and taran..
*sorry of my mood that affect everyone!
then went to walk ard b4 we go meet
pam @ giant..
then went to sentosa after buying the
things we wann..
then went to underwater world first..
then pinic begin..
after 5 mins?? rain came>.<
then went to the shelter for a while..
after rain stop-ed, went out again..
all went down to the water except
mii, Ying Ying, her bf and taran..
then went vivo walk walk b4 go
chomp chomp eat dinner..
went NEX @ 7.10pm cause we hav
nth to do @ vivo city..
went there walk walk then Gina came
and went to chomp chomp..
eat, eat and eat.. till 10 plus?? then
HOME-SWEET-HOME (:
**the feeling really sux.. when ii see you,
ii was trying to stop think-ing about
that matter.. but no matter how hard ii
tried, is will just be in my mind..
and when ii see you, ii hate-ed myself lots..
was thinking whyy did ii choose to do this
kind of things to you.. when ii see euu, ii'll
be reminding of what ii did to euu.. and it
really hurt alot!!!
[ii seriously hate this kind of weird feeling..
even though ii'm with euu, ii was thinking..
shld ii leave now?? but ii pretend to be
strong and treat that nth had happen..
but when ii could not control, ii'll go far
away from ppl and be in one corner to cry..]
but after a cry, the matter just will pop out
again to mii.. ii don like the FEELING!!!
but ii had to pretend to tell ppl nth had
happen to mii..
(ii only can trust myself right now)
was thinking all the while.. the reason whyy
ii choose to trust you again is because EUU
are my fren..!!!! but euu disappoint mii..
euu use-ed my trust to hurt mii and her..
and ii seriously was thinking to forgive euu..
but ii did not because everytime ii see euu,
ii will begin to hate euu!!! ii find that euu're
so FAKE!!! fake till that euu think is alright..
and ii think that ii'm so stupid till lett euu
make use-ed of my trust to hurt others!!!
II'M SERIOUSLY STUPID AND DUMB
TO TRUST EUU!!!
ii told myself that ii'll nvr trust euu again!!!
not even a word!!!
***finding hard to trust anyone now after
this matter***
ii'm just who ii'm
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